After such a long day yesterday, all I could hope for was some good sleep. Understandably and naturally, that didn’t happen. I had a nightmare.
In it, I was in a snow covered town. The streets were narrow, hilly, winding, and full of European style buildings. The buildings were no more than 2-3 stories high each, with gabled roofing. It was nighttime. The streets were empty and I was running through them.
At some point, I ran to my “home,” an unrecognizable place. It was dark inside. In the kitchen, I saw my mom, dad, and older brother tied up in chairs with their mouths covered. I ran right to the bathroom and locked the door. Of course dream logic, this door was see-through. There, with a creepy smile and a knife, is my ex fiancé.
He is a tall, blond Dutch man. Big forehead, per regulation. It’s hilarious that AI got so close to his appearance. While he was shit in his own right, there was no reason to dream of him in this way- especially because he hadn’t crossed my mind in so long. I pull my phone out and start to dial 911, but my family freaks out like they don’t want me to, making me think he threatened them with permanent measures if I called. I think the stress of that moment made me wake up.
I thought about telling work Id come in at 9am and get more sleep. However, the stress of the nightmare and already thinking about everything that needed done from the day before removed any remaining sleepiness, so I went to the shower instead.
Work went fast and well enough. Everyone was back, but both people who called out the day before looked rough still. I felt bad explaining how bad the day before went because I didn’t want them to feel guilt.
My husband messaged and we chatted a bit about the past few days, and his own. As far as people to be in the process of divorcing, he’s a good one.
I got home, fed the fluffs, ate some chili and green beans, and cozied up with the demons in bed, watching youtube and blogging.
An uneventful day, but thats… welcome, after how chaotic the day before was. Im going to take melatonin tonight and try to get even better sleep. Melatonin makes it a nightmare gamble, but I guess Im in the mood to try my luck.
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