Okay. I admit it. This was nothing. I’ve always carried the momentum. I was given intermittent reinforcement. I did all of the daydreaming.
I was and still am one of many. I will never be what he wants. I deserve more. I deserve better. I deserve to be wanted and prioritized. I deserve reciprocity.
An entire evening and day is free and he somehow communicates even less than during his busy work days. I took the bait of a during-work call and a rushed voice message. I feel silly for having fallen for it, but I’m at least getting faster at noticing.
I am mentally checked out. I am done.
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